So, I've been doing the single girl thing for quite a while and was getting a little bit frustrated watching so many friends find happy endings while not finding something myself. In October, it got to a point where I was thinking about it constantly: "When will I meet him? Where will I meet him? Will it be today, tomorrow, next week? When?!" Of course my best friend knew all about these (very persistent) thoughts that were plaguing me. One afternoon we were brainstorming solutions and we agreed that I needed to play a little mind trick on myself and say, "You know what? I don't even want a relationship until June of next year. Put it out of mind, out of sight and just live my life because it's simply not an option I want." Hence, this post.
This mind trick helped me feel like I had some sort of control over something that, in reality, I have absolutely no control over what so ever! It made me feel like I was making an active decision to NOT pursue anything for several months. This might seem a bit nutty (probably is) but it helped at the time and that's really all that mattered to me.
And now I am happy to say that someone was waiting for me THAT ENTIRE TIME!
I've been seeing a wonderful, wonderful man for the last month that I've known for over a year through work. It's amazing to think that all that time I was worrying about who and when and where and how and "why not me?", he was sitting about 20 feet from me wishing he had the guts to talk to me and ask me out. Fate has done it's thing and here I am, happier than I've ever been.
Quite truly, the last few weeks have been a whirlwind and so much of my life has taken the back burner because I want to spend all my time with my guy and figure out where this can go. (Example -- I completely forgot to stamp and mail my December utilities bills. Found those bad boys in my purse this morning and scrambled to pay them over the phone.) I need to be very sure that I do not continue to put things on the back burner just because there's a new (WONDERFUL!) part of my life. So here's a list of things I want to be very sure I still give due attention:
- Obviously friends and family: They are the ones that kept me afloat while wondering when fate would bring my guy into the picture. I am beyond grateful for them!
- Work: Greg and I work together but it's VERY important that he and I keep our careers seperate and thriving. This is going to be a huge year for me as I've set big goals for myself.
- Apartment projects: I want to paint the inside of my front door and I want to figure out additional decoration for the wall space over my couch. My home (as tiny as it is) has always been such a secure place for me to, well, come home to; I will continue to nurture it as much as it nurtures me.
2011 is going to be a phenomenal year :)
